Denial is not but my favorite sin

Out of the entire self destructive behaviors one can commit against one’s self…. Denial tops the list… and unfortunately we all go through it at a point or another…. Even a life coach like me wasn’t left alone by denial…it chewed at me for months and it grew…simply coz I allowed it to…

I want to tell people, not to follow a mirage… I want to urge u all to stop, disassociate yourself and look down at the matter from above…. God created our brains for a reason… don’t upset him by overlooking the powerfulness he granted you… wish I personally didn’t, but it’s never too late to stand up again… in fact, it’s better late than never, right?

When you get struck by reality after denial, the only outcome becomes pain…and I assure you, the stronger the denial, the heavier the pain… so tell me, what for? For the pleasure of a temporary happiness? or the beauty of a fake picture that mesmerizes you? Snap out of it! Love yourself… give yourself your true value! Nobody and nothing out there deserves having u lie to yourself.

To all those still in denial…wish you a speedy recovery.

Song of the day - vanilla twilight

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5SjQ0YQYyHc

Beautiful...dedicated to the ones I love and miss so much...happy valentine's day...wish you were here..xo

Vanilla Twilight lyrics

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

Valentine's is here....again.

The 14th of Feb is almost here...people are getting prepared and couples planning all these surprizes...some sucessfully draw a smile on the faces of their beloved...some achieve a masterpiece of disappointment;singles get divided into two major sections, one part envying those in love or drowning in lonely sorrow and another part that goes out there to celebrate with friends, exchanging roses and chocolates, it's a day to celebrate love in all it's forms so why frawn...get out there and party, that's what they say. The bottom line is...valentine's day is almost here...again.

Personally, valentine's day used to excite me whether i was single or taken... right now, i'm not so sure how i feel about valentines... how do u celebrate love when u dont really love anyone that much? I dont mean being in a love relation, but love in its core...be it a friend, a parent, a sibling or a child...? How do you celebrate if you dont really love someone hard enough to celebrate? or what do you do if you love someone more than usual, but that person is not around on valentine's day? maybe will never be around, whether this year, the next or the coming 50 years..? how do u manage to pretend the chocolates taste too good, or the roses smell amazing? what's the trick and how can it be mastered...coz I believe that if I find valentine's day a disappointment, i have no right to transfer that feeling to those who have a reason to celebrate..so i thought who celebrate with...and I went out, bought my little girl a valentine's day gift :)...she's only 2.5 and has no idea what valentine's day is.... but i realized she is the only one I truly want to celebrate with after loosing all those i loved along the way on one way or another.... I guess that is the secret...

It doesnt matter if u r single or hitched...it doesnt matter if you dont have a best friend or if your siblings are spending the day their own way...and it doesnt matter if you were recently abandoned by the love of your life... dont let valentine's depress you, CREATE the love you need to live on that day..make a new friend, adopt a pet or go ski diving just for the sake of doing something new! If u have nobody to recieve love from, GIVE away love, be it through a charity or a visit to an elderly or a sick friend...giving love is just as fulfilling as receiving it... the good thing about love is that it makes people happy even when it's cruel to hearts...

Open your heart...coz you can :) happy valentine's day...

Time to Say Good bye

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kbq1ESjMkFQ

For every person that left a mark in my life and had to leave against my will...wish things were different... God Bless

The Enlgish version of the song by Sarah Brightman

Love letter to the memory of my Sinbad

The morning rays seep in through our window... the scent of you playfully teases my dreams. I open my eyes wishing I'd wake up to find you watching me, so that I can smile back wondering if you like what you see, your deep set dark eyes would strip me down to the bone and you give me a beautiful smile then whisper a "Good Morning" that would sound like music to my ears.

It's been a short while since we met, but it feels like I've known you for centuries...it all happened so fast and never have I imagined I'd love anyone this much...you have given me all I've ever dreamed of...every moment with you seemed like a lifetime of its own... how can I ever tell you what you mean to me...words seem so unfair and so inadequate.

Days pass by while I struggle to survive this ugly town... the memory of you helps me go on. Your face gives me hope in the morning, your voice offers me a lullaby at night. although you are so far, it feels you are just a breath away... you have reconnected my heart to the world I have wanted to leave... tickled my senses close to insanity and spoke words that only I seemed to understand.

I dream of you, every single night my Sinbad... I hear your heartbeat inside my pillow just to fall asleep; I read your letters 60 times an hour because these words were uttered by you.. i trace your face in your pictures and close my eyes to feel your features against my finger tips... how I'd give away eternity just to breathe the same air you breathe, how I'd silence my heart beat just to listen to yours....how I'd stop time just to prolong being in the same room... how I'd spend my life in silence just to not waste a moment of when you speak... how I'd stop my eyes from blinking because I'd miss you in between.... tell me what to do my sweet Sinbad... tell me how to stop needing you....How can I stop being this sad... You are so far, and will never come by again... you've gone to explore your world and left me behind... and yet every morning I wake up wishing the same...That I'd find you smiling as you watch me rise and whisper "good morning" into my hair.. I miss you... I Love you...and I will never loose hope, that one day my miracle may come true and I'd smile again as you come home to me...

And it starts

Hello y'all,

Well it's my first time on a blog and i have no idea what to say... but i guess i should use this opportunity to introduce myself to my fellow earthlings :)

I'm just me...nothing special yet not the type that goes around unnoticed... life has given me exposure to various insights although i'm only 28 years of age... and i still believe there is so much more to see & learn...

I'm like any common girl with dreams and hopes... i love so many things and i like diversifying my interest scope... I dont label anything, or rather i stopped doing so co I realized that labels are simply unfair

You might have guessed already, but i'm interested in people..that's why i decided i want to be a coach.. life coaching is my true calling... i believe I can help and make a difference..or atleast i hope I that I do...I dont care if my impact is not world wide; but just a minor change in someone's life could do wonders for me.... I'm a humanitarian who wants to make this a better place and a while not so long ago seemed to loose hope in achieving that due to the cruelt present in our world...yet this is what i try to educate people NOT to do..never give up, never loose hope... life just cant be any better...